Murphy's law can suck it!

Hello puppets
So, I was supposed to take a pregnancy test on the 25th. Well, I decided that I would take it a day early. The reason for this is that September 24th was my granddad's birthday. Anybody who knows me well, knows that my granddad is the most important man in my life...well, until I met my wonderful husband. My granddad passed away almost 13 years ago and when he died, a huge piece of my heart died with him. He was more of a father to me than my biological father ever was and I miss him dearly. So the 24th is a special day in my heart and I figured that it might bring me luck. Well, it didn't. Negativo one more time. And of course, since I spent money on a pregnancy test, I get my period that same afternoon. I should have waited one more day before I went and wasted a test. Stupid murphy's law just cost me $ grrrr! Oh well, what can you do. The combination of the negative result, missing my granddad Henri and having a shitty night at work made it a yucky day. Seriously, work is absolute crap right now. So many people are ready to quit because one person is making our lives miserable. We have to constantly watch our backs and it makes it a horrible environment to work in. Even the doctors are commenting on that fact. I am soooooo ready to move to Indy it's not even funny.

So what's next for us? Well I went and had my blood work drawn today. which was day 3 of my cycle and I called the fertility doc's office to let them know when cycle day one was so that they can book my hystersalpingogram. They are very nice at that office. I had heard some negative comments about the staff there, but they have been wonderful so far.

I am actually off for 4 days in a row...yay yay yay! Tonight I am chillin' like bob dylan. Mike is at a race so i have the place to myself. I will catch up on my shows from this week, take a nice long hot shower and start some laundry and just enjoy the evening. Hell, maybe I'll even bust out a nice bottle of wine.

I have booked my flight to Montreal in december. I am excited to go back home for a bit although, I am dreading the snow a bit. I'd rather go to Montreal in early fall or late spring but I have a very important reason to go in the dead of winter. I'm going to be an auntie and I cannot wait to meet my new nephew!

I bid you goodnight

Tests, tests and more tests

Well, the appointment yesterday went well. I really like this Dr. He's quite nice...has a horrible comb over, but he's really nice. Actually, all the staff that I met yesterday was wonderful and helpful.

So he went over my entire history and pretty much said that he is going to be putting me through more tests. First, he wants to check my hormone levels on the third day of my next cycle...on that exact day, no earlier, no later. I guess that determines how many good eggs I have. Then on the 7th day of that cycle, I am to go do a hystersalpingogram to check and see if my tubes are in fact open. He was really surprised that my prior doctors had not performed those tests on me. Once those are done, he will most likely start me on fertility shots. I guess that clomid increases your chances for pregnancy just the first 3-4 months, after that, it decreases your chances. Go figure.

So that's where we are. If I don't have a period by September 25th, I am to do a pregnancy test. If it's negative, I am to start progesterone again to get my period and then do the tests like he said. If it's positive, well, our work is done. He does not want me to use clomid anymore, but he does want me to continue with the dreaded Glucophage...and the gassy-ness continues!

I just hope that my insurance covers some of this stuff. Thankfully, it covered yesterday's consult. As for the hystersalpingogram, they put my diagnosis as "irregular menses", not 'infertility" so hopefully the insurance will cover it.

So, once again, it's wait and see all over again

Pineapple Express

Saw it when it first came out and it's hilarious. Totally want to go see it again. Just had to share

Anyway, so tomorrow is the day that I go to my first Fertility doc appointment. I'm a little nervous...no excited...no anxious to go. I don't know what I'm feeling, I'm just hoping this gets figured out. Like my GP said, I'm getting "egg-old" so I need this done. According to my grandmother's friend (she is an astrologer...is that even a word? She does tarot card readings and stuff) she says that I will be pregnant by my next birthday. I know a lot of people think that stuff is a bunch of crap, but I totally believe in it. Maybe that belief is what makes things happen, but who gives a shit as long as it works right? It's just like when I was having a lot of nightmares and I got a dreamcatcher and the nightmares stopped...probably all psychological but who cares as long as it works.

Lily, Ned and Chuck are coming to visit! Lily, Ned and Chuck are coming to visit! I can't wait!

Oh and Smashbox make-up rocks.

The End

New light

So usually I complain about my GP, not because she's not a good doctor (i would have stopped seeing her if she wasn't) but because she is really stingy when it comes to prescribing meds. I mean, do I really have to see her every 3 months to make sure the lyrica is still working? I'm sure if it wasn't, I would call her ass and tell her so. Anyway, the last time I saw her, she pretty much rocked. Not only did she finally renew my lyrica for 6 months instead of 3, but she changed my metformin. The metformin is the one med that I use for infertility that I was complainin was making me super gassy. Well, she changed it from the regular 3 times a day tablet, to the once a day/extended release tablet. What-a-difference! I feel so much better. Plus she is now sending me to a fertility specialist...finally I feel like we are getting somewhere. My faith has been renewed a bit.

Well, on thursday, we got the new new bed. The other new bed was too soft for Mike, so we exchanged it for a mattress that was more firm. I slept awesome today on the new new mattress so I think it was a good change.

Tomorrow we leave for the Napa Valley area...Calistoga to be exact. Of course, we are going there for racing, but we are also going to do some sightseeing since I've never been up there. Wine tasting here we come!

Hope you all have a fun and safe labor day weekend!

It's 4 pound madness!

Holy craziness at work these days. The last night that I worked, we had 8 nursery babies...8! All but 2 of them were little 4 pounders (ha, that makes them sound like burgers or something). Anyway, it's just craziness.

Negative again for us this cycle. I wasn't as bad as last month. Didn't really get my hopes up this time but it's still disappointing. I went to see my GP today to get a prescription renewed for my Lyrica and she asked how the baby making was going. I told her that it's not. So, she said that I'm getting too old for the "wait and see" game so she's sending me to see a fertility specialist. It's the same one that Lily was seeing so I hope I get the same results as she did. Keep your fingers crossed!

Not much else is going on. Oh, we do finally have our flat screen tv with surround sound and it is awesome! The HD is coming tomorrow too.

Oh and some moron of a "father" got caught smoking pot in the patient's bathroom the other day. I mean seriously! Can't you wait til you go home...or at least go to your car in the parking lot. Come on! And people like that can have babies. I will never ever understand that.

Damn you Tar-jae!

Freakin Target will be the death of me. It is impossible to go there and only get one thing. I can't remember the last time I only spent 20$ at Target, it's always at least 100$.

I think I'm living vicariously through my brother and sister in law. Everytime I go to Target I check out the baby stuff and get my little nephew to be a bunch of cute stuff. Damn clearance racks I tell ya!

I can't wait to do the same for Lily's babies

I can't wait even more to do it for my own child someday

I'm bringing sexy back...NOT

Ok, so how is one supposed to feel sexy and make a baby when she is super gassy and feels bloated all the time? Stupid glucophage gives me major gas..I know TMI but seriously. It's really hard to feel sexy when you feel like you are 3 times your normal size. I'm a big girl to begin with so this bloatiness is not helping at all. So I started going to the gym again. I go after work which kinda sucks since I'm already tired from working on my feet for 12, almost 13 hours, but it's gotta be done. It makes me feel a bit better about myself. It's difficult getting in the mood to make love to your husband when you feel completely unsexy so I will do what I can to remedy that.

On a lighter note, we just had a really nice weekend. Went to the coast to watch some races and then spent the night in Santa Maria. Sunday, we went to a really cute little Danish town called Solvang. Totally adorable. We walked around, went in to all the cute little shops. Hit about 4 bakeries (I know, totally contradicts the whole gym thing but oh well...I have an insatiable sweet tooth) and a few little quilt shops. I found a cute little something for my nephew to be. Seriously, this little guy is going to be completely spoiled by his auntie Melanie.

That's about all that's new with me. Going back to work tonight. It's gonna be a long week next week. I'm working lots and Mike will be out of town all week. I really need to go and get my name changed. I'm just dreading going to immigration...such a pain in the ass. I will do it thursday for sure though. That is all