Belated Update

I know, I know, I am totally late updating this thing. Ive just been really busy.

I went to my post op appointment with Dr. Synn on the 9th and he said that everything went well during the surgery. He showed me pictures of my beautifully open tubes and nice uterus. He also showed me before and after pics of my ovaries. The before pics of my ovaries shows them being big, round and shiny...like golf balls. Well, that wasnt good. That meant that I had a crap load of cysts in my ovaries due to PCOS (yeah, I dont have pcos...right Dr. Shebelut, thanks a lot for wasting my time). So, Dr. Synn said that he did ovarian drilling. Say what? Never heard of such a thing. Well, it is exactly as it sounds, he drilled holes in my ovaries!! I guess it is supposed to help the egg release from there. Ok, whatever you say, hope it works. So after showing me pictures, he said that I have 3 options at this point. The first one is that I could go back on clomid. Well, we tried that and nothing happened so I said no thanks. The second option is to start on injections and to start IUIs (intrauterine inseminations)...that sounds good. The third and last option is to do IVF (in vitro fertilization)...dont think we are quite ready for that just yet.

So it looks like when I come back from my trip to Montreal, we are going to start injections and IUIs. Im excited about that. Im in Montreal right now visiting with my beautiful new nephew Liam who was conceived by IUIs so I know that they work. I dont think that Mike is really excited about it mainly because of his part in the process. We might try injections and the natural way of conceiving at first, we will see. We need to talk about it some more.

The 9th was our one year wedding anniversary. I still cannot believe that it has already been a year! Its crazy how quickly time flies.

Oh and I will post pitcures of my beautiful nephew as soon as I can! He is seriously so cute, I just want to put him in my pocket and take him back to cali with me. Its amazing how you can love someone you just met so completely.

Lily was right!

Lily was so right about Dr. Synn. He just called me to see how I was doing and to see if I had any questions. Told him I wanted to know how things went. He said that everything went very well, very textbook. My tubes are nice and open...yay!!! I thought it was really nice of him to call and make sure I was doing ok. Most doctors have their nurse call to follow-up. I thought it was a nice personnal touch. Oh and when I said that I was sore he actually apologized...haha, i'm like it's totally fine, comes with having surgery, no worries. He said that he had to put in some mesh to keep scar tissue away from my tubes and ovaries and that's a lot of manipulating so that's probably why i'm really sore.

So that's what's going on. Now I just have to heal and it's back to baby making. Cross your fingers!

Update

So I called the Dr's office. Of course, he is not in the office today and of course he has my chart with him. The nurse that I spoke to said that with Dr. Synn no news is good news. She said that if anything didn't go as planned, he would have called me to let me know. So I will go with "no news is good news" until I see him on December 9th for my post-op appointment.

How funny is it that my post op is on our anniversary. That's when he will tell me if we can resume the baby making and what the next step is from here. I'm thinking injections, but we shall see.

Lots of love

Versed, Zofran and Darvocet...my new best friends!

I am home from surgery. Everything went smoothly. Unfortunately, I didn't get to speak to the doctor after surgery, but he told Mike that everything went really well and that I was doing just fine. I am going to assume that the surgery was successful. I will try to call the office today to see if I can get a straight answer as to whether or not he was able to open up my tubes.

I feel ok. My lower abdomen is a lot more sore than I thought it would be. It feels like someone punched me about 20 times down there. Thankfully the darvocet is working. I've got quite a few bruises on my belly too but that's not too bad and it was expected. I didn't sleep great because of the soreness and the fact that I had to pee about 20 times, but I see a lot of naps in my near future. Clovis hospital is wonderful. All the staff was excellent and very friendly...they even gave me a small bouquet of flowers when I left! I thought that was really sweet. If they had an NICU there, I would gladly deliver our baby there (someday soon hopefully). St-Agnes has gotten so ghetto, I mean seriously, last week, someone actually did some graffiti on the bathroom wall with a sharpie. Come on!

I will post more news when I have some. I will now try to call the Dr's office.

Lata!

The Date is Set

So we finally have a date for my lap procedure to open up my tubes. November 19th! I really hope it works. If the good Dr cannot open up my tubes, our only other option (other than adopting) is to do IVF. I wouldn't mind IVF, it's just really expensive...10-12 thousand! My insurance doesn't cover any infertility stuff. Fortunately the lap procedure I am having in November is not yet considered infertility so the insurance is covering that. So cross your fingers and your toes for us because I need this to work.

Other than that, not much news on our end. It was nice not having to take any hormones this month. No hot flashes, no gas (well, less gas haha) and no bloating.

My newest obsession is the Twilight book series by Stephenie Meyer. I cannot put those books down. There are 4 in the series and I just started the fourth one last night. These books are making me lose sleep because I can't put them down. The movie adaptation of the first book comes out November 21st and I cannot wait. I am so going to the midnight show.

And now I am off to take a nice long walk. It's nice and crisp outside and I need the fresh air.

Oh and yesterday was my dear mother's birthday. Happy birthday mom! I hope you had a terrific day because lord knows you deserve everything you wish for. I love you.

Lily and her belly full of babies

Lily was here for a quick visit this week! It was soooo good to see her. I've missed her greatly since she moved back to Kansas. Her belly full of babies looks terrific! I cannot wait to move to Indy so that we can see her more often. One day was just not enough. I love you Lily and i'm so so so happy for you and Bryan! I wish i would have brought my camera so that I would have pictures of her actual belly full of babies, but I don't. So that is a picture (very obviously) from my wedding.

Just Believe

Yes, I got my HSG results and they weren't good. My lab work is all good which is great because that means that I do have eggs and they are healthy, and Mike's sperm count is good as well. The bad news is that there is no chance for them to meet up and create life. My right fallopian tube is completely blocked and my left fallopian tube is "sludgy", like muddy. So, what they need to do now is surgery to try and open up my tubes. It's a laparascopic procedure so it's not a big deal, but it's also not for sure that he will be able to open my tubes up. When I heard the news it was the first time that I have been really upset about a test result. Why does everything have to be so hard all the time? Why can't I catch a break once in a while. I know, I know, woe is me, but seriously, I don't get it. We are good people who, in my opinion, would make terrific parents. I'm not a religious person, I only go to church about once or twice a year, but I do believe in God. But, after that news, I lost a bit of faith for the first time since this whole process. The weird part is that the next day, we were driving to town to go to a movie, and we past this little church that always has little sayings on their sign. The one going to town said "Jesus is smiling at you" and in my head I thought "yeah, right...whatever". On the way back, the sign said "Just believe". It was as if it was talking to me or something. I don't know. I don't really know what I'm thinking. My mom was encouraging and brought my spirits up a little. She said that she knows this will happen for us and that 2 tarot card readers said the same thing, I will be pregnant soon. One of them said that I would be getting pregnant after my sister in law, well, she's due in december so it's my turn!

On saturday we went to the Oakhurst fall festival (don't laugh, it's actually kinda fun) and at the festival there are lots of little booths with crafts for sale. Well, Mike saw this cute little onesie with a skull and cross bone thing on it and was all excited and even said "Look, how cute" and I almost burst into tears. I'm not one to do that often. I don't like feeling vulnerable like that. I've always been a really strong person and I feel like this is weakening me. What's really annoying to me is that over a year and a half ago, my first OBGYN wanted to do the HSG but changed his mind at the last minute and just did an MRI. We could have found this out over a year and a half ago instead of putting my body, myself and my husband through hell with these useless meds. It's all very frustrating.

On a lighter note, Lily is here!!! Yay, I've missed her so much and I can't wait to see her and to kiss that belly full of babies!


Anyway, I have to go to work now. That's what's new with us. So the next step is surgery and let's hope they can open up my tubes. I should know within the nest week when the surgery is so I will let you know.

Have a great everning!